About a year into our marriage, Rick came around and decided that he really wanted a baby with me and that we should start trying. I was scared. I knew that I would have to go off all my medications as not to hurt the baby, and my chances of conception and carrying a baby full term were slim, but I wanted a baby and thought about it. The more I thought about it the more frightened I got which made me not want to get pregnant. After time, I realized that becoming a mom was too important to me, and no matter what the ill effects going off my meds would do, it was worth it, but I still hesitated.
One day I was shopping at Wal-Mart and walked past the baby section. I saw all the tiny little clothes and diapers and bottles and burst into tears. I needed a baby, and I needed one now. I finally just walked out of the store without getting what I needed and went home and cried. I really needed a baby.
Luckily, I had a doctor appointment that afternoon. My mom always went with me and without even discussing it with Rick, I blurted it out to mom that I was going to talk to Dr. Rana about having a baby. She was so excited.
At the doctor's office I explained that we wanted a baby and asked what I would have to do so that it would be a safe pregnancy. She told me how to step-down my medications over the next 6 weeks and that I should come back in 2 months for a follow-up. I followed her instructions over the next two months, and although the pain was horrible, and my mobility was suffering, I knew that a baby was worth it, so I endured.
After 2 months I went back and the doctor told me that we could start trying as soon as we liked. She gave me a huge hug and told me to stay in touch in case things started going south and I needed help. After the appointment I went home looked at my calendar and counted ahead and realized that I was more than likely ovulating...Today!!!
We tried that night, and I got pregnant.
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