You're Pregnant

They wheeled me on a stretcher to another part of the hospital and did a sonogram. At which time the tech informed me that I was almost 8 months pregnant. At this point it hit me what was happening and I broke down.

I had not gained weight. I never felt the baby move. I took almost every narcotic available by prescription. I had done so many things that were harmful to a baby, that this one must be horribly damaged.

I covered my head with a sheet and sobbed. Then I heard them tell my mother that I was pregnant and she sobbed. What had I done? What was I going to do? What had I done? I just wanted to die.