They Agency

I called the next agency and a wonderful woman answered the phone. She said that she could see me the following day, and I just knew that they were going to help me. I was so scared, I didn't know what to expect. How were they going to treat me? What were they going to say? Needless to say, I didn't sleep at all that night, all I could think about is a business of people who would now judge me and make me feel lower than I already did.

Mom drove me to the agency in San Antonio and I braced myself for the worst. I walked in and couldn't believe what happened, they were nice, and understanding and non-judgmental. They really acted as if they cared about me and what was going on. I explained how quickly the baby was coming and they got to work right away. They gave me a birth-parent questionnaire to fill out about me, and the birth-father. It asked all kinds of questions about me, and my family and health issues, how long people had lived and how they had died. Mine was easy to fill out, then I got to Ray's. It was at that point that I understood how little I actually knew about him, and I started to cry. Fortunately, they were very kind and told me to do my best and not to worry about the questions I didn't know. I still felt so stupid. I was with this man for over 2 years and got pregnant, but knew very little about him.

I really didn't want any contact with Ray, and I hoped that I could just ignore that fact that he was the father, and as far as I was concerned, he never needed to know, however, by law, he needed to be told.